People send confusing messages all the time

People send confusing messages all the time. They say, "you're beautiful just the way you are." Two seconds later they tell you that you should workout more so your features will tone and blah and blah and blah.

 I HATE the "motivational" workout photos that people post saying, "if you don't give it your all, you Gave it nothing" And then they post some saying all you have to do is workout 15 minutes a day or workout little by little and you'll be fine even if you mess up your routine. 

 I'M JUST SO TIRED OF IT!!!!! It just makes me more insecure about myself. IM NOT PERFECT!!! And neither is the person posting those stupid things. It's unrealistic that everyone should have those stick thin bodies and if yo don't, you shouldn't feel bad about it. Just be healthy. 

It's also annoying because it just makes people feel worthless. Most people cannot achieve those bodies and they shouldn't try because some people have naturally curvy and big boned bodies.

Know who you are and try to be yourself.

And always remember that:

I'm not fat

but i'm not skinny either.
and I'm determined to stop
gaining and losing weight.
over and over and over again.
so what's my goal here?
125 by summer time.
last day of school I will
weight myself.
i will be 125.
but in between that time
i will try not to weigh myself.
instead i will try to be healthier
feel healthier.
live healthier.
and i will be 125.
i'm tired of this up and down.
the last time i was 125 was probably
when i was 11 or 12.
that's right.
4ish years ago.
it's time.

starting weight?
157

yikes i know. i lost so much over the summer
and i gained it right back
because i didn't care.
i'm not sure i ever really cared.
until now.
because it's over.
the old me has to leave.
i'm forcing it out.

i've been reading this new blog called Tales of Good Man Friday...
you can check it out here.
the post that Andy did today
and well... has been doing everyday,
has really inspired me.
but not just inspired me to sit here
and be inspired.
but inspired me to be encouraged
and go out there and do something.

so
i'm welcoming the new, happier, healthier...me
because i'm done being tired, of being tired.

Fitness Friday!

woah. it seems like forever. though I have not been working out 

everyday, I have been working out! 

So I thought I'd show you some of the things

 I do while at the gym :) 

Rowing! I don't really enjoy this or

other things that deal with my arms,

but I feel my arms get stronger, so I do it! :) 

and other arm exercises.

Sometimes I go into a room where I stretch, dance, 

and take photos of myself;)

Here's another rowing machine and where I 

do most of my arm work

I LOVE the elliptical!!!!!! I usually do this first after 

stretching.

Whenever I feel the need to relieve stress

or loosen up, I run.

What are some of your favorite workouts?

Fashionista Friday!

I saw this on pinterest

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And oh how I've wanted a big ol' watch.

But they are expensive.

Like this one from Michael Kors

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or these

All from Michael Kors! (image source unknown)

How disheartening :(

$250 buckaroos...for a watch...

No doubt that they are worth it, 

but at the moment, 

I can't just spend that kind of money 

on "frivolous" items. 

Especially with a car, license, insurance, phone, etc

all on the way with my 16th birthday.

And no way am I going to spend all of my hard earned money.

But you see, God is awesome. He knows everything I want.

Everything.

Like last year for my quinceñera, I wanted a limo.

But I said nothing. I knew it would be expensive

and that we just couldn't afford it at the moment.

But someone rented one for me as a gift.

And someone bought me a beautiful tiered cake.

And I knew that eventually I'd get a beautiful watch.

Today was that day my friend. 

And you won't believe how much it cost. 

(yes, this is my arm and bangles and watch)

In my opinion it's prettier than the Michael Kors watches,

it's in the copper tone that I absolutely adore,

and it was about... $245 cheaper (on sale) than the one

from Kors.

I also got one in silver:)

Lose weight...gain weight...eat too much....eat too little.....

I am tired of it.

Tired of being told 

that I look like I gained weight.

Tired of being told that

I should lose weight.

Tired of seeing "inspirational" workouts

on pinterest. 

TIRED of living my life thinking

that I have to look a certain way

and weigh a certain way.

I'm tired tired tired of thinking about it.

If you have been reading my blog for a while now

you'll know that I posted a lot about my weight

and my journey. You can read up on it here. 

Or if you read my post last Wednesday then

you'd know that it's something that's been on my mind.

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This world is confusing at times.
Which is why I've decided to just be me.
To just be healthy.
To just be happy with myself.
And you should be too.

High five for Friday!

1. I actually did a craft that I saw on pinterest!

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2. Well.... I think you get the idea;)

3. Thanksgiving fun with the church fam on Wednesday:)

4. pix w/ ma boo

5. My lovely siblings and my sister's friend:)


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High five for Friday! (and fitness Friday)

Finally ordered my CDs!!

My CD release is in 15 days.. omg

I'm being featured in an online Girl's Magazine

for the months of Nov/Dec! How exciting?

Took pictures in choir class ;)

Am going to the gym today! Yay for Fitness Fridays

and for being able to get back into my routine.

Thinking about dying my hair even more red OR 

golden/honey chocolatey brown

highlights/hair color...

Thoughts?

I want to do it in December.

So help me choose:)

Oh and Happy Birthday to my Blog Friend Lauren!

You can check out her High Five For Friday post too:)

http://forlaurenandlauren.blogspot.com/2012/11/high-five-for-friday.html

Happy Friday!

Fitness Friday

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Ahhh... Today's challenge asks: Something you usually crave. 

Today is also Fitness Friday which ties in perfectly with the challenge.

I am always craving junk food.

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Sometimes it gets pretty bad and I have to remind myself to drink lots of water.

Which reminds me that I've really really really gotten off track.

Not only with water, but with working out and with lots of other daily habits I 

had going on. It gets really really hard to keep it up 

and sometimes I forget what I need to do

and that I need to keep my temple healthy.

So easy to say. So hard to do.........

Happy Friday Friends!

Nos Vemos Mañana :)

Missed my post on the start of my 30-day-blog-challenge? Go here: Day 1

what happened?

First off, I want to apologize for not posting day 11 yesterday! 

First I went to school then I immediately went to the studio to record 

one of the main songs on my upcoming CD.

haha never mind. I'm not that sorry :P

For those that just want to read fitness Friday, then keep on scrolling till you see a break in the post.

oh and don't forget about our giveaway.

Day 11

 What's in your make-up bag? 

From left to right:

L'oreal Ombre Eye Shadow (love. It stays on all day!)

Eye shadow stick from somewhere

Cover Girl Concealer (don't like)

Almay Waterproof mascara. (It's ok. Really thick and awesome, 

but comes down throughout the day. 

and not waterproof)

 Eyeliner from Target. It's called extreme or something like that. (eh)

Cover Girl Foundation

Estee Lauder Blush Brush (gotta get it!!)

Avon Kabuki Brush (thumbs up)

Day 12

A photograph of your town

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1st photo is of our downtown mall. It's really short, but we have a pavilion on one end

where the Dave Matthews band, Third Day, and Taylor Swift repeatedly perform.

The 2nd photo is a picture of what my town looks like from the top of a mountain.

And behind the town is what we call the Blue Ridge Mountains :)

Don't tell anybody I said this, but I really like my town. I used to hate it. 

But now that I'm older, I appreciate it more. Also there are lots of

great opportunities here and we have really famous people

that live in my area. Donald Trump even has one of his Vineyards

in my area. I really like my town. It's not that boring, you just

have to know hot to make your own fun :)

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Fitness Friday!

Working on making that an official 139 ;)

I hope you all have a lovely Saturday! I know I will.

I'm going to a gala tonight :)

 

 Missed my post on the start of my 30-day-blog-challenge? Go here: day 1

Food is good - Day 10

"What is your favorite place to eat?"

Asks the 30 day blog challenge.

Wow. just one place?

I have like 30.... 

But my all time favorite has to be Christian's Pizza.

Heavenly, cheesy, thin, sharp, YUMMY, pizza......

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Happy Thursday!

 

 Missed my post on the start of my 30-day-blog-challenge? Go here: Day 1

Fitness Friday // On My Heart

Rule: You must listen to this song while  reading the post

Today I am frustrated.

I can't run because my knees aren't cooperating this week.

I run to vent out all of my frustration and anger and thoughts.

I run because it feels like that's where I'm meant to be.

I run because I love it.

I run because I enjoy sprinting.

Even though I run for like 10 minutes

I still love it.

I want it.

But right now, I can't have it.

Two days ago at the gym

I was having a really tough moment. 

Well tough day.

I was angry because I couldn't run,

upset because I had to start school (there's more to it than that),

and dumb things were just running through my head.

So I cried. 

and I sat alone in a chair waiting for my dad to finish.

My trainers walk to leave the gym.

At this point I'm just sitting there staring at the front counter.

And he says to me, "Let's pray."

and as he began to pray

I began to cry.

And when that prayer was over,

he gave me the hug that I needed.

And I thank God for Mr.Tony in my life.

He is truly an inspiration 

to me and those around him.

So basically where I'm going with this is, 

don't leave it inside.

It's ok  to cry.

If you leave it bottled up,

you could just cry a fountain at any moment.

like me-_-

and it's not cool.

You could have a serious anxiety attack.

Don't over think

be free

learn to laugh

and learn to love.

I'm still on my journey .

I believe we are all always learning.

And now that I'm done writing what's in my head, I feel much better:)

Love you guys!

♥LG

P.S. If you  click the video it will take you to the original video on youtube.

You'll find a free download for it:) Enjoy.

Fitness Friday

The little sister showing off;)

Doing a backbend all by myself:) for the first time.... ever.

Some sibling love<3 p="p">

I've learned a lot about my self this week. I feel like I'm constantly learning about myself.

It's a beautiful feeling.

Sometimes it's not though.

I don't like looking at my weaknesses 

or my failures.

But I'm learning to be me. 

Here are the things I've accomplished (workout accomplishments that is):

Jogged for 12 minutes straight. 

If you know me, then you know that I have a hard time doing things for "long" periods of time.

Did a back bend all by myself!

Totally awesome! I did a back bend for the first time in June. My goal was to do it by myself:)

and now I can!

Did 10 chin ups! 

 And right now.... I'm really happy, even if I haven't lost any weight this week:)

♥Lily

Fitness Friday

And so we start out with the typical self portrait.

Yes, those are two band-aids on my knees.

No, they are not due to the gym -_- they are due to 

those dumb bic razors for legs. I think one of them was a legit cut.... not sure

Then we check out the thighs. Greasy Fries or Skinny Thighs?

I will admit to eating some McDonald's fries on Wednesday night...yes...at night...

We move onto the scale.... Affirming that I've gained two pounds since I came back from my trip to Miami.

(they are pounds of muscle, not fat....at least that's what I'm telling myself:)

The scale is also letting me know that I am OFFICIALLY a size 9 in juniors:) 

I still use some 11, but that depends on the brand.

And of course how could you miss that picture after your workout?

Today will be my 4th day in a row working out:) I started out with 3 times a week, so this is awesome.

Lastly, the encouragement pictures. 

This one is of my dad. I really like it:)

You know, I'm really proud of myself. The things I'm doing and the things that I'm accomplishing.

I'm not trying to brag or be vain. I'm just realizing that there is so much more to me than I ever thought possible. And this isn't just for now. It's for the rest of my life:)

Happy Friday Everyone!

♥Lily