If I'm being honest

If I'm being honest...
Sometimes I feel worthless.
Sometimes I feel like I'm going to fail.
Sometimes I feel like there is no point.
Sometimes I just want to give up.
Sometimes I just forget who I am and what I'm doing and why.

but I am someone important.
I am beautiful
I am kind
I am smart
I am valuable

If I'm being honest...
Sometimes I ask why I've even picked my career.
Sometimes I wish I wasn't even here.
Sometimes I feel as though I'll never go anywhere.
Sometimes I feel as though I'm just a shadow and I disappear.
Sometimes I feel like a burden.

but I am not a burden.
I am here because I have a different perspective.
I am here because despite the struggles, I am persevering.
I am here because I have insight, hope, and life.
I am here because I'm winning this fight.

If I'm being honest...
I feel the fear
but I will do it anyways

Do You by Lily Garay

Not another sappy blog post. just a poem.

do you ever feel judged and like everyone thinks you're crazy and weird.

and really what is this notion..this idea what people are weird?

when did we become judges outside of what God has called us to be for our family in Christ?

It's midnight and I have an exam at 7:40, so here's a poem:

I didn't want to touch
the part that was deep

the water was to my ankles
and I didn't want it to reach
my knees

because what if I start to sink
or if my rope breaks
and what if I can't climb out

all those cobwebs
all those regrets
all those maskes

and yet I feel a hand
and my heart feels a fire
and so I begin to inquire

I don't want to seek
but the pursuit of You is my greatest need

The way You show your love
The way You give your grace
The way You are life.

In my pursuit of You
I will strive
to be relentless

p.s.
why did anyone think it was a good idea to start blogs anyways?

Autumn {fall}

Autumn reminds me of change. 

Autumn reminds me that some things needs to die, fall, or be put away for a season.

Autumn reminds me of how I'm really falling. 

Autumn reminds me that I need to fall in love with my Saviour more each day.

Autumn reminds me that I need fly in love and not fall in it.

Autumn reminds me that I need to be patient..prepared to endure.

Autumn reminds me that I am broken. 

Autumn reminds me that life is beautiful and that I am redeemed.

Autumn is an end and beginning.

 

stillness

there's nothing like feeling numb.

feeling as though you don't belong.

feeling forgotten and alone.

there's nothing like having God pick you up.

feeling loved and like you have a purpose.

feeling like there's meaning.

there's nothing like pushing your plans aside.

feeling like you don't have to do this on your own and that He's there.

feeling like everything will be okay.

when you trust in His stillness.

Merry Christmas

Enjoy today. 

enjoy tomorrow. 

just have fun. 

capture moments and memories in your mind,

family and friends should be in your sights. 

don't rush,

listen,

breathe,

live.

because...

it's Christmas :)

Without You

Without you I don't know how I could breathe. I don't know how I could believe.
I don't know how I could dream. I don't know how I could make my dreams reality.
Without you I don't know how I could be. I don't know how I could ever really see.
I don't know what'd I do, if I had to live without you.
You put the icing on the cake, the cherry on the cream.
The love in my heart, the smile in me.

2-26-12 copyright 2012 Lily Garay

It can't be true

                      

It's Thankful Thursday:)

         

p.s.

next week I'll be writing a "prayer" about thankfulness....Stay tuned:)