Easy to get too caught up

So sometimes it's just way too easy to get caught up in the things of this world. Sometimes it's way too easy to get "over-spiritual" about things too. Hey, I'm just being honest here. So in a routine that we forget about living.

So for a while I have definitely just been "trusting God" about this whole boyfriend/husband thing. I realized that there are days where I definitely am trusting Him, but then there are other days when I say that I do, but I don't.

On February 27th (exactly a week ago) I wrote this to a facebook group I'm a part of:

"AH well..today's challenge is all nice and done! It actually reminded me of how much I've surrendered to Jesus, but how much more I still have to surrender. An area where I would like to be fully convinced that God is taking care of me is (maybe the obvious teen girl one?? Lol!): MY HUSBAND!!

Yes, I have so much peace already because I know that God's got this. However, a part of me is still like a little kid who wants to peek at his Christmas gift and get it unwrapped already!! I just want to have an overwhelming peace and complete trust that God is going to put the right guy in front of me at the right time and that I will absolutely NOT have to pursue. Just thought I'd share"

Oh...Now it's a week later and I'm desperately praying that God will help me surrender even more. So many times I have been told that the man will pursue and I won't have to lift a finger, but I wonder...doesn't the girl have to do her part too? Not every love story is the same.

Conclusion: I am not writing here today because I have the answers. I'm not lost. Just a little confused. Why is it so hard to surrender this part of me?