Touch

I read somewhere that pain never leaves. It's just something that stays to make you stronger. I've never broken a bone in my body. Barely sprained anything. Only been stung by a wasp once and I didn't even feel it. But emotionally and mentally...this has been a painful year.  am I used I it? It seems as though my emotions..are numb. Sometimes I can't feel. I leave everything bottled up so I only have to cry once a month. But I want to feel. I want to endure the pain so that I can feel the joy.